平淡。

才发现有好一阵子，我没真正的坐在电脑前。

读着部落格，敷上了哥哥从台湾带给我的面膜，再听着电脑里头播着的歌曲。


如果再加上一杯热巧克力，应该会更好。：）



二零一二的最后一个月，虽然很开心，不过还是一样。我并没有比平常过得比较充实。


以为自己会买些特别的礼物奖赏自己这一年来的辛苦，不过我也没有。




倒数8天，好期待圣诞节的到临。 

no title for this.

i feel bad, i really do  :'(

复杂

明明就很期待, 可是为什么我却有这么放不下的感觉?

i couldn't control myself,

so there is an area in my house, storing all my family albums. 

in the past 2 years, i never have this courage to open the little small cupboard.

and today, i really thought i could actually handle this.

i was sitting on the floor, taking out all the albums, slowly viewing it page to page.

it brought out so much of memories, so much of my past.

from me being a kid untill when i'm a grown up.

you came to my room to put on my blanket.

you always scolded brother for bully me because i was still a kid.

you always thought i am still a kid even when i was already studying in secondary school.

maybe i am the youngest in the family so you forever treat me like a 4 years old girl.

and yes, i'm tearing. so badly.

how good, if i can touch you just a second now?

to wish you a simple Happy Father's Day?

生活

起床
早餐
工作
午餐
回家
晚餐
上网
睡觉


你的生活是不是也和我一样？ 
腻了， 也习惯了.

it's very tiring,

I'm feeling rather numb, forcing myself to do things that i didn't want to do and facing people that i didn't want to face.

I'm still had to pretend to be happy even though i am rather irritated.

i felt like a bird in a cage, living my life not for my own, but another's purpose.

What would you do if you're in my place?

眼泪, 你好

到底还有多久?

我真的好想逃离, 这所有的所有.

自己除了可以对着身边的人微笑, 我还可以做些什么?

对家人, 对朋友.

我往往觉得自己不够好.

几时, 我可以开口勇敢地说我不要?

勇气, 我没有.

告诉我, 我要怎样才好?

11.28pm

i am in love playing Polaroid now :)

when will i see your face again?

i miss Perth & i miss you.

tell me.

work is stress.

how long can i actually hold here?

is there anyone still reading this?

你们好吗? :)

Happy 2012!

Celebrated my new year at Desa Park City with the bf and his gang of close friends :)

my day was awesome, fireworks are nice.

how about yours? :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Rawrrrr

Vintage.

我问我自己，

这种恐惧，到底我要用几久的时间去摆脱？

Surprise from my man.

look at the ballons! he said he wants me to feel more like we are party-ing. SOO CUTEEE.

see he looked more hyper than me.

btw he bought me a birthday cake and he finished all by himself D:

and his family members knocked my room door at 12am. :) warm.

BABY.

Birthday Celebration with friends.

Jason planned a birthday dinner for me and i thought it was only 4 of them.

it surprised me bacause they popped out one by one infront of me when i was talking to the girls.

he said he just wants to make me cry :'(

the dinner reminded me of our High school life, our NOISY class.

Justina, she can laugh really Loud :p

Tiff, the always sexy and hot one for Jonathan! *LOL*

soo, tiff and i.

the girls

Jonathan, the one who bully me the most. and he is good in talking CRAP! -,-

Jiawen, he says he will be there for me whenever i sad. but he dont really tell me his problem when he is moody. (you have to changeee -,-)

thank you, for coming around ♥ ♥

for Jason, you really surprised me and thank you for being my part time driver for so long. i just realize i dont have a photo with you, HOW COME?? D;

12.38pm

为什么, 我没有以往的期待?

6pm

今年的生日, 我会怎么渡过?

朋友, 你们还记得我吗? :)

everyday i love you a little more,

望了望电话上的日期，

对，还剩3天。

试着不去看，不过那天最终会到来。

他疯疯癫癫地陪我过了2个星期,

你知道我不是不肯回家， 而是我们相同有着的那份不舍。

你知道吗？

我喜欢有你的生活，习惯了你那拥抱着我的体温。

我会试着不让自己哭泣。